happy new…happy new year

i’d like to start this first blog post of 2010 with my first blog post from 2009.

new year…new yeah
1 02 2009

oddly enough i’ve been the least bit excited about the ringing in of the new year, more than i can realize ever in my life. i’m not sure why, either. and i’m not really worried about it. my life is good, i’m blessed, i’m happy….i’ve got some awesome gifts, man. specialness abounds and abounds and abounds, and it sooo did in 2008.

i usually make some share of resolutions, and i’m so over THAT…too. i figure that the only and best way we can better ourselves this ‘09 is to just give more to others this year…than we did last year.

how cool is that?

this year, i’ve gotten a list of stuff i asked for. gigs….friends…loves…i mean, love…more love….stranger love, warm love, funny love, deep love. gigs that speak to my passion. i’ve played in the beach (twice), i’ve traveled more…i’ve kept in line with somehow seeing john legend in concert i think every year since he’s had an album release….i saw him open for usher, open for kanye, i’ve seen keyshia cole open for him, lyfe open for him, him perform at my high school, and raphael saadiq open for him…it’s been a cool oddity.

enuff ’bout that…just be positive this year, make it your year. do good and feel good despite how dire your circumstances may seem because if you keep going…thing’s will definitely turn around. i base that on my spiritual beliefs…base it on whatever you want.

and love, daggonit…just love yourself and others as if they had your face…your blood, your dreams, your desires.

hmm…i don’t know if it’s the cold i feel right this minute but i definitely seemed positive….oddly more positive than i feel today. which could all coincide with the holidays being officially over. working monday and all the way over to friday. scraping ice off my windshield and praying that i make it until the weekend. i know that last year i was unemployed and my emotions bounced with the buoyancy of a beach ball at an outdoor summer concert. but there is something majestic about my post above…i sounded happy. today i’m sitting in my room, played some guitar…and somehow am not enchanted to go anywhere or do anything but stay warm and in the house. knowing i have to take a walk in the cold dark later. i have a job. thank God i have a job. the unemployment rate is in the double millions and when i landed this job…i was right on the edge of devastation…financial devastation…the next month would have crippled me…but God stepped in. hmm…as many hang-ups as i have, short-comings, impatience, desire to love better…a whole big bag of self-criticism, i have my special one…i have good health, my family, a home…the ability to read and write. i do often drive myself crazy but i’d like to attribute this to me being some sort of an artist…who by design has to be this ‘crazy’ to create…to feel…and that one day…it will make sense and i’ll be a happily crazy productive and awesome writer by design and occupation.

i had a good year…and i’m not settling. i will try to make myself over, better, happier and healthier. i’ll try to be more on time…lol…and creative. i’ll try to blog more and not work the eleven hours a day i’ve been putting in because i’m an artist and i need my ‘artist’ time almost more than air and water.

life is good. have a good year. be the best you.

‘if you want to make the world a better place. just look at yourself and make that change’

right?