‘rent filmed on broadway’

i sadly admit i JUST saw for the first time ‘rent’ the movie this year. soooo, when i found out the play would have it’s final run on broadway this year i was bummed i wouldn’t be able to make it to new york to see it…the cool thing is for four days ‘rent filmed on broadway’ is playing at theatres.

i have NEVER gone to the movies alone…but HAD TO last evening because i just HAD to see this film. the movie is like nothing i’ve ever seen…it is (in my area) only playing at 7pm and the tickets were $20 but i really really really am still reeling from it. i have to admit that my main objective was to see and hear tracie thoms cause she’s freeeeakin awesome and is the only movie cast member in the actual production from the last broadway run…she also kicks arse in quentin tarantino’s ‘deathproof.’ but as for ‘rent’ the rest of the cast BLEW ME AWAY…it’s really something to see…the cast is sooo awesome that they make u fall in love with all of ‘em. and it does something to this girl who loves loves loves to see talented people do their natural and beautiful talented thing.

‘rent’ cast from the original movie, taken at the apollo.

i need love…from my wireless provider (verizon), cough cough

having transitioned to verizon for all of four months has proved to be a very frustrating experience. for four weeks and conveniently after my 30 day worry-free period ended, no one has been able to diagnose my billing issues. i was so upset one night, i had a major headache and couldn’t sleep. i just don’t know what’s wrong and why it is taking me this long to solve it. i am told to wait, i wait and have to call because no one ever calls me back. at the beginning of the issue four weeks ago, i was told i’d have to wait for two weeks until my bill posted. well, that two weeks of not knowing only created a higher bill, and for what??!??! i’ve talked to a total of 6 verizon reps…one with a very bad attitude and i’m still where i was four weeks ago…all for a cell phone contract where they are going to get my money anyway and i’m locked into a termination fee!!

researching the company after having initiated the contract, i’m learning my pain is not new to a lot of folks. it helps to hear the cries of others but wow…i need some help here.

is anyone else feeling, unloved by their wireless provider?

i’m dealing with massive over-charges and no one can provide me documentation stating that the over-charges are valid, yet they offer me two options:

1. a higher calling plan-even though my plan is appropriate for my needs
and
2. a partial credit-when i’ve done nothing wrong but would love to pay my regular monthy charge for what is appropriate

i’d be so happy if verizon wipes away the charges and let’s me start afresh…but why would i let my service continue…while they’ve made me feel slighted as a responsible customer?

anyone else have issues with verizon?

i’ve found a website of interest:
verizonpathetic.com

although i’d add that, according to verizonpathetic.com you should ask your verizon rep for contact information to a regulatory agency for your particular state if you would like to file an appeal and that you should fax the appeal to verizon and the agency, i’ve been told by a rep and supervisor they do not have one, but how can that be? i also find it hard to believe that despite the fact that a majority of verizon reps i’ve spoken with have said the charges are wrong…no one does much about it. call me crazy if i think this is reasonable or acceptable.

good luck…share your story…people are listening and people can help.

oh justin part 2

and as for my unsatisfaction about justin timberlake and kid rock being the motown sings-people for ‘fashion rocks,’ here are a few of my suggestions for next year.

remy shand-can someone find this brother?
john legend-beautifully talented singer.
jon b-i love this cat.
maxwell-why would i need to explain?
chris cornel-nuff said.
d’angelo-why would i need to explain, again?
rahsaan patterson-april’s kiss (nuff said).
raheem devaughn-ill lyrical…vocal prowess.
paul wall-bangin screw…one dope single.
eminem-i’d much rather support while glowing thru an old aretha tune.
joss stone-her last album was ill.
robin thicke-one of my most favorite new artists.

oh justin!

why am i listening to justin timberlake right now? why? especially because every since the janet thing (her taking most of the blame) i’ve wanted to be mad with him…but i can’t. and i still…still love his first solo album. i still think he’s kinda cute and his body was sorta pretty in the clips of film i saw during the free cinemax/hbo weekend watching the movie ‘alpha dog.’ and i still…don’t think he’s a bad actor. and i still love love the prince-esque ‘until the end of time.’ and although i’m heated that on ‘fashion rocks’ last night which was cool to watch in HD…that when they covered the motown-era they had justin and kid rock….ONLY. well, with beyonce and mary j blige.

oh justin!

but why?

i just don’t understand…i don’t.

why…why…why when i say…and i’ve said awhile now that i wanna leave ohio…wanna go…leave it a trail of dust blowing behind my heels…then why do people still say, “here’s this job i want you to check out.” and i smile, hopeful-like and find out that it’s in freakin ohio. when i say…when i declare that i want to relocate…why? what is this phenomenon and why don’t they take me serious?

and i say, “i don’t like ohio. it’s too conservative. it’s not for me. nothing has ever worked here for me.” and they say, “yeah, ohio pretty much blows. the job market is jacked all over the place but ohio and michigan have been hit really really hard. and yeah, ohio really sucks. but here’s a job posting.”

who is the person that’ll be like, “eff ohio. here’s something from ___________” ?

i don’t get it…i don’t.

what comes defeat

i have been throwing a lonely pity party for myself the last few days. being unemployed (via outsourcing my job overseas) is not the glorious dance in sun i had imagined it to be. everyone around me is okay and supportive. but i’m sooo not okay with me. i don’t even feel like me and no one can do anything about it. it’s cool ’cause i can muster up enough bravado to tell myself it’s only been a few weeks. it’s cool because i have all the power to make my last job be the last job i ever work in a cubicle. it’s cool ’cause now i have the power to remake me. now i can complete all those crazy ideas i have and go somewhere with them. it’s cool because…but, it doesn’t feel cool.

this last week, we moved. which is great. i’m tired though but my space is finally looking habitable. and i know enough about me to say i hate change…which is ridiculous. but i’ve been sulking for what has been too long. and no matter the outlet i twist upon, i still fall back into this waking sea of sadness. and don’t get me wrong, it’s not easy sharing this with you. i much rather talk about something else like the mtv awards. but i am hoping somehow, somewhere…like when i asked you guys to send me good vibes, literally the weather changed…i’m hoping that my sharing…will prompt you all to send those awesome vibes my way again. and i’ll be sure to hope the same for you.

me and clive owen

i had a dream last night that clive owen and i were in a high suspense action drama. it was the regular clive owen a la ’shoot em up’ and he was all sweaty and a little attractively bloody about the face. he had guns, and was wearing a trench coat, dark clothes and was trying to rescue his wife in a post-war dusty looking city at night time. i was the bad guy, surrounded by my cohorts and he sought recluse at our home, which was my aunt’s home in springfield, ohio.

clive needed to use our washroom and i, so cinematically snuck around the back of the house, ducking and staying low…like in the perfect spy movie and watched his shadow through frilly curtains…he was taking a shower. LOL.

(all i had was pizza for dinner…i promise.)

he wrapped the towel around him, put on the same crumbled clothes and drove off…my group and i followed him. he was driving an old green military jeep and had gone to find his wife. after we let him get to her…my dream ended.

weird, eh?

for you

…well, i’m supposed to be working and doing stuff and being productive and involved and all i can do…is this…

for you…the effortless world opener

effortless world opener
by heartbreak

you are my eyes…that i smile behind
a certain beauty and all the time

you are my stars…i long to see
a breathtaking constellation…some particles seamingly made of me

you are my friend…that voice
my psyche’s perfect co-host

you are my heart…that steamy place
you make time and troubles erase

you are my focus…when you shouldn’t be
when i’m running late…feeling out of place
when i’m exuberantly happy or lower than most

you are my tight rope walk…teaching me
life and love is not a harsh narrow lonely single walk
that lines and shades move in and out
that will, experience and communication even us out

you are the other part of my soul
you make me whole…underneath the everchanging part of me.