stop the obscenity? stop the insanity!

26 08 2007


everyone is talking about how much rap music is gross and filthy, consumerist, nasty, iced out, played out, raunchy, disrespectful, decaying society and how it has people forcing other people to say horrible things to even other people. they say the music videos look like commercials for diamond mines, with girls who have found new ways to shake stuff, that well, they shake stuff that…um…extra shakes. and that these poor poor women are not career minded but helpless damsels who are forced to learn moves for a guy a dream and a camera. not just women trying to advance their careers by getting work that will have their faces on more television sets than they ever would have imagined. and what is so bad about the human body these days??? (flashbacks to janet and justin…alright it happened…what i want to know is who died from it?)

i have digressed.

so rap is the new bad guy? and we have people calling for its head on a platter, a styrofoam plate…its cleansing…its sanitization. stop the use of the n-word, the b-word, the h-word. and then i read an article where there was like a parade/funeral for a word…a word? and all this criticism magnified after a rambling man in a cowboy hat who mumbles personally subjected a group of collegiate academically minded women to like loose street walkers. and we are to believe that because don imus listened to a rap cd or was so moved by spike lee’s film *school daze* he thought he could ‘go there.’ i bet he’s never even listened to a rap cd but what he did was personally slander a group of women he didn’t even know. and he subjected their integrity (i’m putting this very very lightly) and as a media personality he has to adhere to the contractual agreement between him and his employer. he misspoke and had to pay the consequences.

what if rap music did sanitize itself? no men and women wearing nothing but stuffy hugo boss and dolce and gabbana suits, rappers wearing fossil watches instead of cartier. girls shaking but only to beat infusing songs with dances that only look like a mild round of the ‘macarena’ or my ‘go to safety’ dance, a non-sensual robot. always peppered with a wry smile. always. no cars. well cars, but nothing but kias, and the occasional ford escort or maybe nothing more than a mazda six. pickup trucks welcome. and the occasional beatifically sleek range rover…only if it’s been toppled like that saddam hussein statue and drug throughout the streets of the atl by a small child, with people beating the tires of it with brown sandals and ultra bright white keds.

so the new face of rap. songs that only talk about love and hate in the guise of a four year old sing song rhyme or to a mother goose track. an album cover devoid of style or statement.

so are you meaning to tell me that once rap does an ‘about face’ all of a sudden, crime will disappear? women will be more respected? racism, homophobia and sexism will be gone? poverty over? we will have better and universal health care? the job market will explode and everyone who wants a job will get one? that our educational system will supply every school with the necessary tools and technology to compete with the rest of the world? that illiteracy will be non-existent? that abortions will decrease in number and all of a sudden everyone’s language will be grammatically correct? that high blood pressure, cancer and gas prices will be on a massive decline and hiv/aids gone?

is that what they are trying to tell me? that smaller t-shirts and the elimination of baggy jeans (and for the record, i have always dug baggy jeans on dudes) but that this small fashion adjustment will better a people, will better our country? and that an ignorant rambling media personality will never say another offensive thing? and no racist, sexist homophobic, mean hurtful thing will ever be said or done?

is that the message? if so. if we allow ourselves to believe that…our true problems have only begun.

but if this works. if the censoring of rap music works. where will the censoring end? if you cleanse lyrics, you have to extend it to every genre of music to any time period. you have to therefore cleanse artwork and museums, history books, plays, musicals, magazines, books, advertisements, tv programs (where anytime between 8pm-11pm is a gore-fest of crime. and ‘desperate housewives’ isn’t known for being exactly moral), poets, writers, media personalities who are critical will have to burn some of the books they’ve written (mr. o’reilly), and not support their poet friends who use ‘questionable’ language. then what next, the cleansing of our minds? thought police? the stuff that writers have been detailing for a long time as a cultural possibility? and for those who don’t like the praise of ‘things’ (cars, watches, clothes, drinks, chains) but align each tv show or magazine with ads to sell things…um, double standard?

if words will be banned, can i sue a guy for saying “muthereffer!!” after slamming his finger in his car door? can i? can i?

where would it stop?

music censoring already occurs on the radio and it should. to only get the nasty you gotta buy it. to not see the girls shakin like bacon, you gotta use your remote and flicker past the station. if you worry what your kids are watching, talk to them about it and listen to what they are listening to. when they are away from your watchful gaze, they will need you in their subsconscious. discuss it. to look into this rap issue better, you gotta actually listen to the words. what are they really saying? i listen to too much of the other stuff to be really proficient in this issue. but think about it…cause it’s not what you think.

or is it?





stop that train!

26 08 2007


my good friend told me he had a weird dream. me, being nosy sometimes to my own misfortune, kept asking him what it was about.
he began.“we were walking. a group of us were walking and heading toward railroad tracks but you were walking ahead of us. then a train hit you and everyone started crying. i ran to you but you weren’t okay. your arms were away from your body.”

and so i asked,
“how was my face?”
i was thinking that i had just turned to instant roadkill. mangled and oozing. bloody, quivering.

“your face was fine. and i (in the dream) couldn’t return back to the office. partially because i was concerned that your mom would call and i didn’t want to tell her what happened.”

i was puzzled and wondering if my fate was soon gonna involve me getting squashed like those flat pennies they sell at like county fairs and stuff. but the other part of me is thinking that because my friend and i constantly gripe about our dreams unfulfilled that he knowing that i am a writer is concerned that if i continue to head in the same direction (working not apart of my passion) that i will end up “armless” or somehow diminished or less than what i currently am. or maybe that i need to write to live.

hmmmm.
more so, maybe to bring me to this. COLLEGE STUDENTS….FOLLOW YOUR PASSIONS. IT’S FALL, DON’T DISAPPOINT ME, OKAY? NEVER FIND YOURSELF STRUCTURED IN THE SMALL CONFINES OF A CUBICLE WHEN YOUR DREAMS ARE ELSEWHERE. IT MAKES FOR BITTERNESS AND ANGER. I JUST HAPPEN TO HAVE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN THE SAME SITUATION THAT I AM IN. WE KEEP EACH OTHER “ALIVE.” SO, REMEMBER THIS. FOR ME. (these caps are really annoying, but i’m so serious.)

side note.
**the other night i had a dream that terrance howard was passing love notes to my friend, and they somehow ended up in a sultry dance. and that janice dickinson was working at a massive music store and was writing me a pass to get a sold out common cd. the guys who worked behind the counter were telling her that if she wrote “something” down on the pass, i wouldn’t understand the innuendo.

hmmm. weird.





here i love you

10 08 2007


“Here I Love You”
By Pablo Neruda

Here I love you.
In the dark pines the wind disentangles itself.
The moon glows like phosphorous on the vagrant waters.
Days, all one kind, go chasing each other.

The snow unfurls in dancing figures.
A silver gull slips down from the west.
Sometimes a sail. High, high stars.

Oh the black cross of a ship.
Alone.
Sometimes I get up early and even my soul is wet.
Far away the sea sounds and resounds.
This is a port.
Here I love you.

Here I love you and the horizon hides you in vain.
I love you still among these cold things.
Sometimes my kisses go on those heavy vessels
that cross the sea towards no arrival.
I see myself forgotten like those old anchors.
The piers sadden when the afternoon moors there.
My life grows tired, hungry to no purpose.
I love what I do not have. You are so far.
My loathing wrestles with the slow twilights.
But night comes and starts to sing to me.

The moon turns its clockwork dream.
The biggest stars look at me with your eyes.
And as I love you, the pines in the wind
want to sing your name with their leaves of wire.





The Leaden-Eyed

9 08 2007


The Leaden-Eyed
by Vachel Lindsay

Let not young souls be smothered out before
They do quaint deeds and fully flaunt their pride.
It is the world’s one crime its babes grow dull,
Its poor are oxlike, limp and leaden-eyed.

Not that they starve, but starve so dreamlessly;
Not that they sow, but that they seldom reap;
Not that they serve, but have no gods to serve;
Not that they die, but that they die like sheep.

(extra thanks to the person who shared this with me…yeah…thanks.)





today

9 08 2007


i had to prepare myself for a confrontation that could have resulted in someone getting or not getting the $1500 rightfully due them that was vehemently denied by a substantial party. $1500 not much, but much to this person. so i tried to prepare but not prepare. the tables where set…all individuals present. i was finding the lull to interject, and just like that…without having to utter one word, the request was given by the person who initially denied. thank God. i’m no coward, i was ready and in a lot of ways this was a very big deal. it’s just sometimes life has a way of showing you how to fight. because sometimes you don’t even have to fight…at all. i am awed by that.

it’s also funny how God can present you for a task and if you let go just enough…He’ll do the rest and its end is perfection.





dreamt a little dream (again)

1 08 2007


so enter in the complexity of a similar dream, new person…more mystery. what could this all mean and why my room? strange and puzzling indeed.

hmmm?

why no details?

soon.

like now.

scenario is that now the person is seen, from the beginning. no touching, no guessing, which is a stark departure from the other. at first this person wants nothing to do with me talking briefly then walking away while i’m trying to be compassionate. they leave me, and come back. but i am always laying down, lounging. being taken advantage of (and i mean this lightly) kind of used for emotional support-thru the dialouge and being used as a pillow. and i notice that i am being watched by them, even as i leave the room. being lounged upon, oddly through both dreams with these two very separate people that i know who find it necessary to touch me…fully (in my dreams.) and i am always trying to impress them. what is my own personal issue here?

two…means…recurring.

ouch.

what’s next?

um, dream doctor??? are you there.